Grief and Love
Grief is a weird thing..... Especially when it starts before the actual possible event happens. I know all the things, and mostly I even believe all the things. Circle of life, the blessing of having a loved one on the earth for over 90 years, knowing that peace, health, and everlasting life is guaranteed because they are a believer, but yet.... That's a part of my heart, my mind, my soul that will never, ever, ever be filled. I have always had the idea that it's kinda like the way people with brain injuries go on, that your brain finds new and creative ways to work and keep going, but what about when it's woven into every bit of you? It's selfish for me to want to keep her here, unrealistic, just not going to happen. And thank God I have countless memories, pictures, stories, that she'll always live on. And it might be days, weeks, months, knowing her stubborn self it might be years, but it seems like it'll be sooner rather than later, and no matter when it is,